I have spent most of the past year making goals, keeping a calendar, and filling it full of activities to aid in my constant struggle. Recently, I started implementing those good intentions. Applying to graduate school will give me a reason for getting up and another date to keep on my calendar. I even dared to interview for a full-time teaching position, opting for a daily structure, the ability to live alone, keeping a healthy lifestyle, and making myself accountable over sitting in the dark and waiting for my student loans to be canceled. However, this change toward routine and living life will force me to repay my student loans, take on added expenses, assume more accountability, and actively pursuing life. My calendar is filled monthly with events to attend, grocery shopping, dr. appointments, school, tutoring, teaching, visits to the farmers’ market, weekend dancing, religious services, and hopeful dates.
It is easy to fall back into unhealthy patterns, but often times we need that change in order to become healthy. This isn’t just a mental change. Everything must change from your view on life to the time you wake yourself up in the mornings. Being sick and tired has left me sick and tired, and change, whatever the costs to one’s lifestyle and pocketbook may bring, is the only way to break the cycle.
So, in light of this enlightenment, I encourage everyone to make one change in their life this month. Make it for the positive. This year I have changed homes, changed my diet, changed my physical size, aimed for goals, returned to practicing my religion, began dancing, applied for jobs and school, and began tutoring a subject I love. But this total metamorphosis is not necessary for everyone, only those who like me find themselves in a rut and cannot bring themselves out of it.
Change your hair, change your clothes, change your friends, change your comfort zone. And in the end, a change will do you good.